Friday, October 29, 2010

Being present...

Right now I'm anxious but I'm choosing to just BE in my anxiousness. I think our culture does ourselves a disservice by rejecting our varying emotions for the sake of 'taking our minds off' of something. I was watching a movie that was mindless and purposeless to remedy my feeling. Why do feelings need a remedy? Sometimes I feel out of touch with my God because I waste so much time 'taking care' of my emotions instead of embracing them for what they are and turning to Him for directions as to what to do with them. The bible says to not be anxious for anything but with prayer and supplication present your requests before God. So then why do I feel the need to distract my anxious thoughts instead of just presenting my cares before God? My worries and concerns should drive me into the presence of the most wonderful, peaceful God. I love the rest He brings my soul. I don't have to run or turn to temporary fixes, there is true rest for me. Its like taking a true, deep, top to bottom breath when you feel like you've been slightly holding your breath for so long.  Its good to just be here and to stop for a minute and take time to FEEL. 
On another (somewhat similar) note:

 I got to spend some awesome time the other day with my youngest bundle of fun. We rarely get fun time together because sweet little Anna is scooped up and shuttled around town where ever the day's activities takes us.
 Well last week we just got to sit outside together and play in the grass and enjoy a beautiful, peaceful morning. I'm learning more and more about this little one with each day that I am given with her. She's totally coming into her own and I LOVE WHO SHE IS!!!!!!
 She's a very cautious little one when it comes to walking or doing things that involve being more than a foot off the ground. But she is curious and loves to 'go'. She wants to be doing things with the big kids and you can watch her sweet face while she is watching them and see the great desire she has to be 'out there'.
 Well, that will all come in time. Right now I'm glad she is still a cuddly little one who needs here mama to hold her and help her out. I delight in her smile and her happy disposition... she enjoys being enjoyed.
Fixing her sister's jeep!
 I've heard it said that the 3rd child is typically the happiest. I can see that in Anna. She's just happy to do whatever and go along for the ride. I think she has her daddy's laid back, fun attitude. She is perfect fit to this family and I'm thankful everyday to call her mine.
 Oh, sweet girl, I just want to breathe you in!

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