July, where did you go?

So I looked at the calendar today and realized that July is almost gone! What the heck? Was I so busy that I missed an entire month or maybe July was just shorter this year? Whatever the reason, its almost gone, I'm kind of glad because it makes fall that much closer! I heart fall... its my fav!

Drum roll please... (where's Mikey B when you need him?)

Remembering to love

I love my kids, I mean I LOVE my kids. I really feel lost whenever I'm without either of them. Sometimes I go out with friends for a ladies night or whatever but during the majority of the evening I am thinking of my husband and my little ones. its not that I feel like they can't make it with out me or anything, I just really enjoy them and I don't want to miss opportunities to be with them and JM.
So, reality is that however much I adore these bundles, I still get frustrated and I have moments where I just want a little space. So today, as i sit here during the silence of nap time with my only companion the occasional flip flop of my lovely 3rd child, I am reminded of how life gives us no promises. God gives us promises but we have no guarantee of tomorrow. I just finished reading a blog of a friend of mine who lost her son during early labor and my heart is devastated. How does a family, who are completely excited and prepared to bring a new life into this world, handle the news that their baby, who they haven't yet met, has passed away? I don't know how a person moves on from that. I think of our bundle of fun on the way and I can't even let my mind wonder to the land of what-ifs. I can't comprehend life with out my little Zaya and Bean. So today I am reminded to live for the moments I have with my kiddos. To let Zaya wear what she wants and play the games she wants even if it makes a mess and if she has an accident, no worries, she'll potty train before she gets married, I'm sure of it. I need to let Bean get rambunctious and make a little extra noise and so what if he doesn't eat a good lunch... he won't starve and I need to just hold him if he wants to be held... he may not want to cuddle much longer. I also want to embrace being pregnant and find joy in this new life unfolding within me. I don't really enjoy being pregnant but today I will love it! I need to love every moment of my kids no matter what stage they're in... they are treasures intrusted to me and JM for a short time and I want to take it all in and not miss a moment. Maybe no more girls-night-outs for me. I'd rather be with my family:)
My babies on the train at the square... this pic is completely typical of their behavior... I love them!
With Aunt Jeannie Poo and the barn to see the horses. They LOVED it!

PS- I think we may find out if our new addition is a boy or a girl tomorrow!!!

The Beach

We took a much needed family trip to the beach this past weekend and let me say, It was AWESOME! We have never taken our kiddos to the beach (horrible, I know) and I haven't been since I was pregnant with IG so we headed off to St. Simons for a long weekend of fun! It was a huge blessing and a huge relief and our family needed to just BE together and enjoy one another. Life gets so busy sometimes and I forget how to just have fun with my family. I thank God for our wonderful kiddos who were complimented over and over again for their great behavior and cuteness. They are just good kids and they came that way! I am thankful for our sweet bundle on the way and how I haven't been sick hardly at all this pregnancy, crazy tired, but not sick:) We're going to have some wild times during next year's beach adventure! I am thankful for my wonderful husband who always puts the needs of our family first over his needs and desires. He is a perpetual giver of his time and energy and goes out of his way to make sure I have down time even when he rarely gets it... he's a great man! Most of all I am thankful for my glorious Friend who cares for every bit of my heart even when it is hard and removed. He gently draws me to himself and in that place I know that I am safe and that my heart is comletely cared for. it doesn't matter what is going on in this crazy world of joblessness, war, socialism, poverty, etc., because in His presence and in His will I am COMPLETEY safe from the chaos of this world. My God is good to me and the desire of my heart is to be as good as I possibly can to Him.

Anyway, here are some pics of my precious ones and a couple family pics:

11 weeks and counting!

So now that our Little One is 11 weeks old, i realize that we may know pretty soon what the sex is for our new little addition. I go back to see the wonderful Richard in 2 weeks and then again 4 weeks after that, we will probably know something then, or have a good idea:) Anyway, we have names picked out either way, so this will be the earliest that any of our children have had a name! I posted a poll on the right to get a good general consensus about the over all guesses of our friends. I'll let you know what JM and I think: we think Peanut is a girl BUT once I saw the ultrasound pic I wasn't all to positive any more. So I am actually undecided, JM thinks we're having a girl. What do you think?

PS- I thought Zaya and Bean were both girls... I'm not a reliable source of information:)

I should get paid more for this

This morning I am having to take Zaya to the doctor because of a reaction to some antibiotics, she has been crying for 3 days straight and hasn't eaten for four, there is a roof leak right on her bed, the plumber is supposed to be coming out to fix a faucet leak in the bathroom, I haven't had a shower, my house is a mess, I need to get together papers for medical insurance that need to be in by the 10th (I got the letter yesterday), my house is a mess and I'm hungry but nothing really sits right these days.

I need a vaction.

Oh April, you have been so busy!

This month has seemed out of control! From the kiddos getting one disease or another from week to week to having repairs done here and there around the house to wedding festivities to numerous Easter celebrations to finding out we will have another peanut by the end of the year, we have been busy! Here are some pics of our good times:
The Nysewander cousins:Oh my goodness!!! She is PERFECT!
Playing with Poppy and Mimi's rain barrel:

He doesn't walk, he runs:)
My flower boy... he loves hats, sunglasses, flowers, whatever!And the prettiest girl:
Zaya and her pal in the tunnel at our fav park!
Bean found a sink full of water in the play house...
Sweet girly face!


So besides just business, we're having another Nysewander! We are so excited and the more and more we think about the fun of having three of our babies so close together, the more excited we get. Don't get me wrong, I know how hard it will be at times but I absolutely love having our first two bundles of love close. They play together beautifully and fight together beautifully but they play with other kids so well and I think it is because they have each other to' practice' with. When Bean joined our life it was crazy and quite honestly, it was hard but everyday was a little easier and a little more fun... Which bring us to today where I have plenty of time to upload pics and post a blog because my kids are content and they have each other for entertainment! They have their moments when Bean needs constant love and Zaya can't quite figure out how to stop crying (but I can relate!) and in those moments I want to run away and hide but all-in-all my kids are rock stars! They understand life as them being a part of something instead of being the center and I think that is important for kids now, in this generation. I am praying for our new love that will be joining us that this little person will love his or her big sis and brother and that Zaya and Bean will rise to the occation of being the 'big kids' and love and care for their new sibling. We're excited and can't wait to see the evolution of our family over these next few years... God is SO good to us and I know that this next year will be so good too!!!

Bye for now!